Don't look back is one of my favorite Boston Songs. Right now it seems to be a theme in my life.
Things are changing for me for sure. I am a self employed mom of three, my oldest having left home now, and my youngest two 5 and 7 years old. I have reasong to suspect my husband is cheating on me yet again. He is 47 and I am about to be 40. I thought we had gotten past all the infidelity in our marriage, but I found condoms in his top drawer the other day. Condoms that I do not recall being there before. Also, he gets up early around 5am to check his e-mail. I had some dreams recently that he was leaving me. We also had an arguement recently. He never tells me that he loves me anymore, and has stopped touching me too. The last time he acted this way I came to find out he was cheating on me. I am no saint either, his cold behavior on that occasion led me to cheat on him, it was only later I found he was the one cheating first!
I hate the fact that so many men in our world find it hard to be faithful, we recommited our selves after that big infidelity, and I thought it was all in the past. But now.....Ah Now....I am wondering again. I have an enormous debt around 27,000.00 that might force me into bankruptcy and homelessness. Or at least divorce. Personally I think he'd be a fool to let me go, I am a wonderful woman, good with our kids, take care of the house, and would certainly take care of his mother and father as they age. (i have only one surviving parent to worry about)
I may be broke, but I unlike him have a nursing degree, and a current license. He has no education. So future wise, I think I would come out ahead in the long run. And If i do find out he's been cheating........all bets are off. I will catch him, use evidence against him in court, I will get half his 401k, Half the equity in our house, and half the value of his mother's house, which is in his name. All in All about 160,000 worth of assets. Which would more than take care of my little debt, and set me up in a new life.
Stay Tuned this will be interesting to see how it all unfolds.
